I will try to answer your questions as best I can with the information you provided. For the last year or so you have been thinking of your father during sex. These thoughts turn you on but at the same time you are concerned that having these thoughts is not healthy. When these thoughts occur, are they involuntary or do you willingly initiate them because they turn you on? Are you thinking of your father in a non-sexual way during sex or are you fantasizing about participating in sexual acts with your father? It also seems unlikely that there was some early childhood sexual trauma involving your father that you have blocked out, based on the information you provided. Women often look for their father in their sexual and romantic partners, this is very common. It is basically the female equivalent of an Oedipus Complex.
A moment ago, however, through viewing porn on the internet, I have become increasingly careworn towards watching older men having femininity. Occasionally, I dream of my dead father and some of these dreams are sexual in nature. The men I find myself watching often be reminiscent me of my dad. He was successful and well liked, but was also physically and emotionally abusive en route for his children.
Freshness, adventure, and variety Sex on a beach or mountaintop. Boning in an airplane bathroom or while wearing a butt plug. Getting it on all the rage a park. Fantasies that center about novelty incorporating a new sexual action like anal or oral or escapade having sex in a new locality are common. In long-term relationships all the rage particular, keeping novelty alive is chief for fighting bedroom boredom and maintaining an active sex life, says Engle.